How to grow your wings

This is a story about growth.

Like all growing pains, it is far from a pleasant experience.

Everyone talks about the caterpillar’s transformation as if its some magickal overnight process.

Welp, it ain’t.

It takes time to grow your wings.

It takes gestation. The decomposition of an old life to the point at which there is no going back to who you once were.

Like the caterpillar when you decide to embark on this journey, expect the unexpected.

You will have to be completely vulnerable with yourself to take on this process of metamorphosis.

There are times where the pain of your decomposing body might be so intolerable that you want to break free. Yet I beg you to be patient with the process for when the time is right, you will know.

Allow the process to take hold, even though the discomfort. Allow your caterpillar self to decompose, digest, and turn to a puddle of goo.

It sounds a lot like death right, and in a way it kind of is.

In this state of sheer vulnerability, the caterpillar can’t revert to its former self. It has embraced its change; it has embraced its fate.

It knows that it has to completely surrender to this state of transformation. Knowing that it has only the shell of its own construction to protect it from the elements at hand.

At any moment it could be plucked from its place of safety, and yet it remains confident that in the end the process will be worth the wait.

The caterpillar does not set a clock or write down a specific time for its transformation. It relies on the instincts of its own biology to know when to break free from its shell.

In the end its worth the wait, for if it survives the painful process of its own decomposition, it is given the most magickal gift of all.

Freedom from its own cage.

At first its wings are stiff, but within moments it instinctively knows how to fly.

So will you if you embrace this journey of transformation.

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Cracked Glass

Cracked glass

I lived with you in a world of false reality.

All because I took your hand.

Together we rode upon your broken wings as you swept me away to never ever land.

The glass cracked, and reality bled through.

…….

I opened my eyes, and I was alone… and had been so all along.

Fear, betrayal, bitterness and of course contempt.

These emotions are dark as the night, and they poisoned my soul.

…….

Sick, desperate, and festering with fear I ventured into the depths of hell.

Down beneath the ground, where the flames burn hot, I saw his face.

The devil, like you my dear promised me lies.

With my remaining strength I punched the devil in the face and stabbed him in his darkened heart.

I swore that day to never fall for such temptation again.

…….

Growing up is part of life, some say the most painful part of all.

I want to say it happens to everyone, but that too is a delusion.

Many like I run away to never ever land where youth is eternally sipped from a goblet of false dreams.

There is a price tag for such is insanity so drink it wisely or perhaps it is better not to not indulge at all.

-Soren Johhsen

Feathered flower

Feathered flower

Feathered flower.

Beautiful silk petals.

That wither in the light of the moon.

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Flames of eternity.

Ignited by the spark.

Of our beating hearts

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Rejuvenated by love.

Not for another.

But of self-restoration.

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Drowning the sorrows of regrets.

Clean the past from your hands.

Let it go…

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Strength from within.

The foundation of the soul.

Watered, nurtured, and given light.

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Grounded with strength.

Blooming with colors.

Of unspeakable beauty.

Discarded youth

Discarded youth

Young like a child, I trusted you instinctively.

Never once questioning your lies.

Remove the blindfold.

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Discarding my remains.

The love between us

Has slipped away.

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Once I shed tears.

Tears for the years.

No more will I cry.

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Under the influence of your spell

You dragged me through hell.

I escaped.

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Discarded youth,

age that once calloused the soul.

Time has left me wise.

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New growth,

sprouting from the crop and burn.

The scar you left on my heart.